Maxson baby # FIVE

This kids waiting for their surprise news we had for them. 

As most everyone already knows, yes Roland and I are expecting our 5th child. Yes we did know this could happen as we know what causes it. We are excited and happy about this and so are the kids.

Of course we have been getting the all so familiar question, "Are you planning on having more?" I can say honestly that we do not know, only God knows that. The reason I say this is because in the course of our 7 year marriage God has time and again shown us we are not the ones that can control this. Something many people do not know is that we only "planned" our pregnancy with Amelia. After we had her I was on birth control, we got pregnant on it and only 4 days after announcing it to people we lost that baby. Then back on the birth control I went and only a couple months later was pregnant again, this time we planned on not telling anyone until after the 12 weeks everyone says you should wait because I was scared of losing this baby. Very early on in that pregnancy I started bleeding a lot and passing very large clots of tissue, I was terrified that I was once again going to lose another baby. After 2 different visits to the ER they told me it was a threatened miscarriage. That is when I decided it was not a good idea to keep it to myself I needed to tell everyone so they could pray for my little baby because I didn't want to go through another loss. After that we ended up in the ER one more time due to the same thing. After a lot of tests and an ultrasound we were told we were still pregnant, however, they were sure I was pregnant with twins and we had lost one of them. After a long pregnancy I had a beautiful baby girl, Charlotte, so all the prayers in the beginning of that pregnancy worked a miracle. 

So after having Charlotte we were once again trying to prevent pregnancy and after no time at all we were pregnant again with Zeddrick. I must admit I was very shocked with him and when I took the test I did cry. Charlotte was only 6 months old and I was not ready to have another baby. However it didn't take long before I was thrilled to be having him and of course Roland was happy immediately. 

After we had Zeddrick it was back on the birth control we went, then before Zeddrick was a year old we were pregnant again, however we lost that pregnancy. After that pregnancy and those losses I didn't want to chance it so we went on 2 forms of birth control at the same time. Then 4 months later, we were pregnant again, that is our precious little Matias and I am so glad God gave him to us. After Matias Roland and I talked a LOT about what to do from this point because other than an IUD we had tried every form of birth control and none had worked for us. So we started talking permanent solutions, without going into to many personal details neither of us were comfortable with those options. That is when I decided to get an IUD, I figured there was no way I could get pregnant on that. Well as you can guess it I was wrong, I did, we had the IUD removed and we lost that baby within days. 

That is when I decided I could no longer do any form of birth control because it obviously didn't work for me. I couldn't keep going through finding out I was pregnant just to days or weeks later lose that pregnancy. Roland and I talked about it and prayed about it a lot. I prayed about it a lot and I felt like if I can trust God with other parts of my life, like my husband, my kids, my finances, my home and my future than why would I take this away from him? Why would I doubt his plan for us in this part of my life? Only God knows what my future holds and how many kids that it holds and I am at complete peace with giving this part of my life up to him. 

I feel completely honored and blessed that God would choose me to carry and raise 5 blessings. And if he chooses to give Roland and I more than that I will willingly and with a happy heart rise to the challenge of raising them in this world to be God loving and God fearing individuals. Because more then anything our world is in need of individuals that are warriors for his Kingdom. 

The moment we told the kids.

Amelia is super thrilled!

The kids are cold but very excited! 

Photography done  by j.n.l Photography