Well we have been in Oceanside, CA for 2 weeks now and the only room in our house that is pretty much unpacked and organized is our kitchen. The rest of the house is only half way done, Amelia's room is half way done, Charlotte's room is half way done, our room is half way done and so on and so on. It's hard to get things done with 2 small kids needing you constantly and the husband not getting home until after 5 or 6 every night, and a cracked rib. Of course it also doesn't help that I have morning sickness all day long and migraines every day all day long as well.
I thought coming back would be easier this time since I had been here once already and it wouldn't all be so new to me. But I was very wrong, it does not get easier being so far from everyone that you love and care about. It does not get easy to leave your family and friends that have become like family. It does not get easy to leave a church where you know the people and they love and care about you as much as you love and care about them. None of this ever gets easy no matter how much you do it, when you do it or where you go.
I'm sure part of me is only feeling so sad and lonely because of all the baby horomones I have going through me but some of it is just not having anyone here to talk to or hang out with. I want to make friends but I honestly don't even know how you do that. I always made friends through jobs, school, and through other friends. Grr moving your life from one side of the country to the other is just a hard thing to do and right now I'm not enjoying it.
