Friday, April 22, 2011

Trying to cope

Well it is finally starting to hit me that my husband will be leaving on another deployment in a very short time. I can be completely fine and not even thinking about him leaving or being gone for 7 long months and all of the sudden, it's like driving into a brick wall, it all hits me. I have done so good not to cry in front of him or to hold back my tears so he doesn't see me cry. Yesterday we bought Amelia and the baby 2 recordable books that Roland is going to record himself reading for them, I think that really made me realize this is actually happening and very soon.  I want to be strong for him and for our daughter and baby on the way. I see him playing with Amelia and how happy they both are and I can't help but think of all the things he is going to miss seeing her do. She is going to be a completely different little person when he gets home and it breaks my heart that he won't have been able to see her become that little person.

So my goal for this deployment is to take pictures every single day, lots and lots of them. To take as many video as I can possibly take of her so her daddy can see what an amazing little girl she is daily. I will email him every night about all the things Amelia is doing and twice a day if she does something new I can't wait to tell him. Even though he will not be here with Amelia and I, I don't want him at any moment to feel like he is missing out on all the things she is doing. I hope I can keep this all up for him and that he feels as close to us as is possible with so much distance between us.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Ohio here we come...

Well after my husband got home from his training we sat down and talked about a lot of things happening in our lives. Mostly of his upcoming deployment, my pregnancy and Amelia. He was very concerned about leaving me here in CA alone when we haven't been here that long and we really don't know anyone except our neighbors, whom are very nice people. Roland didn't like the idea of me being here during this pregnancy because we have already had so much happen and scare us and if something were to happen then we would have no one to help with Amelia. Yes we have friends and family that I'm sure would come if needed to help out but none of which really have the money to fly out here or drive for that matter seeing as they all live on the east coast. So after talking about it for a week or so and doing some more praying Roland decided he would feel more comfortable about leaving Amelia and I if we went back to OH and stayed with my parents.

So at the beginning of May after Roland leaves my dad is coming down and helping me drive back to OH so Amelia and I can stay with him and my mom. So we have started packing up all our things again, and making list of what we need for his deployment and the drive. Making list of what is staying here in CA and what is going with Amelia and I to OH. I have to say it is all a bit stressful to do in the last few weeks that my husband will be home with Amelia and I but if this will help him sleep easier while he is gone then I'm happy to do it.

Also here is a little update on our Little Fighter. We had a doctor's appt on Tuesday, the Doctor did a quick ultrasound instead of using the doppler for us to hear his heart beat. He has a nice strong heart beat and looks healthy, Roland loved that she did that so he was able to see him in there moving all over the place. At one moment it even looked like he was waving at us, it was so cute. On May 2 we are going to get our 3D ultrasound done to find out what we are having and to get some nice pictures and a video for Roland to take with him. Then the following day we will be going to the hospital to have the anatomy scan of the baby done(basically an ultrasound where they measure everything to be sure baby is growing and developing right). Roland and I are pretty sure our little fighter is going to be a boy but until the ultrasound there is no guarantee of course. 





Here is a little update on Amelia, our little fireball. She is doing great and we think she is finally big enough to turn her car seat although I haven't decided if we will or not. She has 6 teeth now, the 2 middle on bottom and the 4 middle on top, it looks like the 2 next the her bottom 2 are going to come in very soon. She is just full of energy all the time and unless she is laid down for a nap or at bedtime I think she would just keep going  and going like the energizer bunny, lol. She says about 3 words that you can actually understand, momma, dadda, and hi. She also says words that you can't understand like duck which sounds like duaaa. She knows the sign for all done and we are working on teaching her the signs for more, eat, and drink. She is growing up very fast and surprising us daily with everything she can do. He daddy is already getting sad about all he is going to miss when he is gone, so I'll be taking and unreal amount of pictures on a daily basis and as many video's as I can for him. 





Well that is everything going on in the lives of the Maxson family right now, I'll update again when Roland is gone and we are in OH.